Feel Your Way to Emotional Healing
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"Healing doesn't mean the damage never existed. It means the damage no longer controls our lives." - Akshay Dubey.
Since I became a Reiki Practitioner, I have felt a spiritual shift. I always knew that I was sensitive to and absorbed the energies of others and the environment, but not to the degree I realize now. It is hard to explain this, but I will do my best (as this is an evolving concept for me).
Sometimes, when I enter a room full of people, I can immediately cut the negative energy with a knife. Even more profound than that, I can become highly aware of when someone in a room has an anxiety attack as I begin to have a similar episode. This experience becomes quickly overwhelming to the point I must leave the area. As a reiki practitioner, I am a conduit of healing energy for myself and others, necessitating grounding. Sometimes, I become confused and out of sorts, making it hard to stay rooted on solid ground. So, what does one do to resolve this issue?
I have written extensively about my journey through the PTSD world and the modalities I have used to stay balanced (acupuncture, chiropractic care, reiki, massage therapy, exercise, nutritional support, yoga, etc.). A trusted confidante once told me I had only managed and not emotionally healed from physical and emotional injuries incurred on my journey through this lifetime. I am not allowing myself permission to truly feel my emotions because the energy(spiritual) work/exploration I do is blocking this aspect of myself. How so?
Along the road to becoming a holistic practitioner, my mind has been telling me that I should develop this persona of a super-fantastic, well-grounded healer- devoid of, or shielded from, the emotions of the past (such as anger, fear, resentment, and so on). Otherwise, who would seek the services of someone who occasionally becomes emotionally "forward"? When I think about something like this, I usually go all in with what is presented to me (ALWAYS REMAIN GROUNDED AND SHEILD YOURSELF FROM TRIGGERS, TIM). For example, the news outlets are big triggers for me, so what did I do? For several years now, I have avoided watching or reading anything media-related- therefore, I can stay grounded for the people I work with. My stance is that if I become unhinged, I will fall into the rabbit hole of rage again.
However, my trusted confidante explained that I need to take a systematic approach, feel each thread of emotion, and then decide what I want to do with it. This type of analysis will allow me, without judgment, to sort through future triggering events and make the most appropriate and peaceful resolution concerning my feelings. Once I make this part of the fabric of my being- my friend said the spiritual work will flourish. The story's moral for this healer is: "Allow me to be human, experience all the emotions life throws my way- And, in the face of adversity, always have the courage to take the high road."
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Last week, I shared how I struggled with left hip and leg issues. Through my studies, I have learned that human beings, as a protective mechanism, hold their emotions and traumas in this area of the body. I attended the Warriors at Ease Level Two training program the weekend before these muscular spasms were presented. During this trauma-informed yoga teacher training, we all shared in a vulnerable and authentic way. I have concluded that I let my guard down and absorbed the traumas of others. I am empathetic; this will happen, and life will continue.
One of the first things the reiki student learns in class is the Five Reiki Principles, which provide valuable guidance to one's journey through life. I will leave you with these words of wisdom so that when life becomes chaotic - you can heal through loving compassion. As you read and learn these precepts- remember that TODAY can become EVERY DAY. You'll figure it out. I promise.
JUST FOR TODAY
· I am free from anger.
· I am free from worry.
· I am humble.
· I am honest.
· I am compassionate towards myself and others.
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If you have any questions, comments, or concerns - don't hesitate to contact me through my email at mindbodybadgeyoga@gmail.com or via the comment sections in this blog. I am here to serve and support you on your quest to rebuild your mind, body, and spirit one breath at a time. Until next time -
Namaste,
Tim